there's a double beauty whenever a SWAN swims.

there's a double beauty whenever a SWAN

swims.

hey you guys. i have much to say today, but the main idea revolves around my crushes. (hint for long post)


so, i was basically daydreaming on my way to driving today (was also daydreaming during driving and my crappy instructor was a meanie so that pushes me into a trance more. i blank out when i get instructed frantically.). and suddenly, i started counting my crushes. it amounts to some staggering figure and thing is, i am sure i missed some out.

let's just move on to the anonymous list (only some listed though) :

first) i was in lower primary. there was this guy who was in upper secondary at that time. we travelled in the same school van. and one night, the van broke down near his mother's hairdressing saloon. so the driver had us calling our parents and my mother happened to be having her hair done at the same shop. so he suggested that he would bring me over, since the driver had to stay behind to wait for the toll or whatever. he carried my school bag and i can still remember how his profile looked under the streetlights. it is fucking romantic when i think about it now. i can still vividly remember how he looked that night and how his contour looks whenever the streetlights shone on him giving me a clearer look in the dark surroundings of the unlit van. weird thing is i cant remember his name. nor how he looks. i just know he was hot and tanned.

second) this is the well-known crush i had when i got into the first class (4F) after primary three streaming. i think almost everybody knows about him. at that time, i thought he had the whole package : looks, brains, athleticism and wealth. not that i was super materialistic or mercenary, but at that time, i guess i already have good taste back then. besides, he was also liked by many. i completely gave him up by secondary one, that makes it about three to four years of unrequited adoration. now that i think about it, he must be nuts if he liked me back, back then when i was seriously fat and ugh.

third) happened during the course of the second crush. ahh, i already had the capability of liking many when i was so young. i figured i was about 11. he was in the same school bus as i am. same age, different school. a very sweet, tanned guy. i think he likes me too, but i am not so sure cause i was pretty ugly still. plus we never got a chance to develop anything cause the significant horror happened and i moved away from my old house hastily. there was once when he had an excursion to some vegetable farm or botanic gardens or something. point was he bought me flowers and we shared a garden salad on the way back. i saw him a couple of times at the checkpoint when i was in secondary school, but i didnt think he would remember me and i thought it would be weird to tap him at the shoulder and ask if he remembers me.

fourth) this was somewhat a "what was i thinking" moment. he was a senior when i got into bpghs. wasnt exceptionally cute, but tanned and sporty. i think he played soccer. there isnt much to this one cause i pretty much moved on quickly. but, he was actually the first whom i told about my feelings directly. okay, it was on text, but still. there wasnt a clear answer given to me though, i forgot what happened.

fifth) this guy was the first crush whom i bagged eventually. haha. yah, he became my boyfriend. score for me! please, like after so many "failures". and this one was the most complicated too. he was my friend's boyfriend when i knew him and also, my eventual boyfriend's friend. so on, so forth. but! i am not a slut, we got together after the complex relationships stopped. pretty touchy subject though, let's move to the sixth.

sixth) this guy is super talented in music; he sings and plays the guitar like a siren if they could be guys. he's super smart, but i guess alittle lazy or rather, not bothered. has the air of an artist. i find him very fascinating, and i guess i love it when there's a mystery to solve. especially when different unexpected sides of him are revealed discreetly when i get along with him day by day. he rejected me in the most gentle and unhurtful way possible, after i mustered super loads of courage to tell him. tsk! but we're still friends, and that's possible cause he's not anal at all and is treating me like before. i adore him like a friend now, and i think he deserves the best.

seventh) now, now now. he is _ _ _ _, or "swan" as my classmates call him. cause they think i am (and many others are) the toad(s) lusting over the swan meat - chinese idiom. tsk! but he's MAJOR HOT and i cant resist. we were "analyzing" him and here are some of his pros that we came up with :

one) hot bod
two) nice face
three) good personality
four) has the brains
five) went to NS
six) owns a car
seven) lives somewhere good
eight) in good course = bright future
nine) is sporty
ten) has musical talents
eleven) has top-notch fashion sense
twelve) either eleven or he has the abiity to carry off any clothes
thirteen) has THE aura

dont believe me? see ZA's blog la! she testifies too! but she claims he's not her type. PFFT! i am so INFATUATED it's crazy. i hope i can date him!

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so, i guess those are the more significant ones. i didnt include my first ever boyfriend in kindergarten who gave me chewable vitamin c's and some hotties whom i swooon over cause they are talented or just plain good-looking. hahaha.

dont judge me! but you see the pattern? i like hotties or talented or interesting or all together. no wonder i dont get much boyfriends. tsk tsk.

xoxo.