DK's msn nickname - "Be Careful Who You Dance With" - slapped me hard, twice over. ugh, so true. true enough.
my mood has maintained its new low point the entire day, ever since last night. i know it's not the best of times to be fretting about anything else part from my Destination & Attractions Management test tomorrow, but i cant control my emotions and they overrule anything. i am not really comforted at any point of time. i felt tormented and agonised. i was in the basement, with no lift, escalator nor stairs. worst thing is, that person might not even know what he has done to me.
and well, cause you say things here and people read, another 'he' assumes things and here comes another burden to my heavy heart. i am not a fan of being accused. and i thought i should make it perfectly clear how i am not a forgiving nor forgetting person. oh, and how i am turned off easily. and how petty i get. how i love to shut people out without giving them another chance to explain, to talk, to change; to hurt me again.
and also how i judge and criticise people, and then most probably stick to that 'assumption' for life, cause i usually keep an open mind when i meet new people and i believe that i can successfully understand them very well. so i have faith in my judgement and that is why i am confident that i am not wrong. and even if i am, i dont care cause it's my life and i live it for me. so what if i just decide that i dont want to be friends with the future president. argh, rants rants rants. no comments please.
"Take A Bow" has been on repeat for the 40th time now. maybe i should buy a house and live with the other three members - huiying, jo and nee - of the Bitter Women's Club. if they havent got out of the misery by that time. or else, it's just me with 375 cats, and i dont even like cats.
ah, as if no mental misery is incomplete with the physical ailments, my body is coming down with influenza.
p.s. yes jo, i know. a passerby in my life. but i didnt want him to be just that. ):
1 comment:
Hey dear, I totally understand that life sucks sometimes but we just gotta bite back. (: Though we haven't been communicating much the past two years, there is a reason why I've been besties with you for the entire four years of secondary school! You were a great person and I'm sure two years didn't change you much inside. MUCH LOVE STILL. My last paper is on Monday so we gotta catch up!
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