it's closing one and people are just coming online. i am beat but no, i cant sleep yet cause i've just eaten maggie mee and i feel queasy, thinking how i ruined my crunches, and bridge and supergirl positions earlier. i need to lose 3 more kilograms and tone up before i go to orlando. dont ask why. i just need to be thinner.
p.s. i screamed when i weighted myself earlier this afternoon. thank god no one was around, but i am sure the neighbours heard me saying, "fuck i am 48kgs fuck fuck fuck". do the bmi math. 48kg and 158 cm is nowhere near acceptable. fat whore.
i remember secondary two/three was my "best bod times". i was at my slimmest and even bought and wore a bikini (which is like lost now). i just want to go back to those days, maybe alittle more toned. yup, i am sick of being au naturale; being the Nottie. i need to get that kickass bod soon. i am impatient and a procrastinator but i need to keep to my regime. treadmill, crunches, bridges and supergirl, then breathing for the abs. sounds ridiculous but that was how i kept my weight in secondary. neeed to preservereeeeeee.
enough of my silly weight issues which will be sorted out in the blink of an eye, let's move on to a Hottie!
agyness deyn. it'll take someone like her to turn me lesbian. check out those collarbones and fucking toned inner thighs! GODDESSSSS, non?
am talking to eu ginn about saturday's plans. it's so hard to decide where to eat, though it's sure that we'll be hitting the clubs after, and most preferably hopping around. what to wear what to wear! hahaha.
oh, i told mummy how i want a Chanel. she said to get a boyfriend to buy me one. -.-
i am pissed off. it was a few days earlier that she mocked me about being single at 18 (she then proceeds to tell me how busy she was dating at 18.). wah lao! what kind of mother throws sarcasm at her own daughter!
booo. i really want a Chanel.
xoxo.
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