i am not dead cause results turned out alrighty. got a gpa raise of like some minute 0.5. but let's just say, i am paying more attention next year and not blanking out throughout the whole semesters and then try to cramp concepts and stuff into my cranial of limited capacity like within one week of the exams. it's not very useful when lecture notes seem oh-so-foreign by the fifth page. not doing badly, but definitely not excelling la! apparently my mummy just feels pretty relieved that i am not repeating modules. she's such a slacker on me!
people are fixing the porch and part of the balcony. all the wood's somewhat decaying with time, it's gross. what's worse, i look out at the porch area and all i see is debris. i dont feel like drinking my milk (cant eat staple food again cause my braces are tightened = pain) when i look out at those dirt and know that I will be the one sweeping it up, with the absence of a maid. i hate independence if it means no maid. i am not gonna wash dishes when i get to chalet cause i am sick of doing it at home!
theory tests are this saturday. oh. which is tomorrow. i am freaking i-dont-know about it. i again, just want to pass the shit. so i can move on to the other part of the curriculum where i learn to change tires. yup. what wonders it'll do to my manicure. i am not emo anymore, by the way. cause i got a really nice facial with massage yesterday. it's freaking awesome. the room was filled with lavender scent and i was almost asleep.
anyways, i am bored and hungry. and my blog is too. man. retardeddd. i want to go back to sleep. this is when i hope no one visits or have to do something. i dont really like having strangers about in my home. bye.
un-bye. i lament again and again, but it just strikes me that i feel sorry for myself that i am not as involved with school, making and keeping friends as.. others. it's not that i dont want to. i just dont want to. it may be, but i feel pretty detached from my superficially so-called friends in general. and i realise it's pretty much problematic on my part cause i dont put in the effort. but it isnt as if the others care anyways. you have to make an effort to be in the impression of others right? - quote from me thank you very much. so i am a loner, but what does that makes you? and the others who dont see that i am truly broken inside when i mope around at home and watching tv and eat (which i cant do now cause of the muthafarking pain in the teeth). then read about other people's interesting life in reality. while my equally, if not more, interesting one only happens when i cook it up with rainbows and unicornz. i am starting to annoy even myself with all the blaming game. well, too bad we aint close eh. just oh-so bad.
(i see potential in myself as an ungrateful, blame-it-all. now wouldnt that just be great.)
ta-ta.
xoxo.
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