"we need to talk." (i almost barfed my heart out.)

"we need to talk."

(and i almost barfed my heart out.)




i dont wanna be a bitch that i usually am, and blame anyone or anything for it. i am a selfish tyrant and i have a no-one-breaks-up-with-me silent policy with my dignity, so this is alittle hard for me. right now. even though i know things wouldnt last eventually, but i just wanted it to fade away without promises of breakups or shit like that. i guess i wanted this relationship to fade into a friends-with-benefits or there's-a-kismet-present thing, no matter how absurd that sounds.

i knew nothing too good can happen to me. God, can i exchange good happenings to erase this bad one? i'll give you both my-encounter-with-a-senior-getting-my-number and escaped-from-braces'-pain-yet-again; both encounters of today.

oh fuck, i want to go to school.

and damn it, what do i do with the ring? i havent got dumped before, so this is making me as lost as ending up in outer space all of an abso-fuck sudden, and i need to learn how to breathe all over again.

now we know everything happens for a reason. i cant thon with my lovelies cause my mummy wouldnt let me cause she knew i would make a fool out of myself (most prolly by crying) when i get tipsy, after i got dumped.





My life, emotionally, is like a rollercoaster ride, no? Nah, I'm not talking about the adrenaline you get riding it. I'm only referring to the blood-pumping, vomit-inducing ups-and-downs and the horrid 360 degree loop-a-loopey-loops.





YAH. I AM PRETTY MUCH BROKEN.











WAIT, NO!



i will be fine tomorrow after a night's beauty sleep, that is IF i get to sleep. (shush! no emo thoughts!) OH, IT WILL BE FINE. I WILL BE GOOD. ooh la la. hee hee hee! what a wonderful world. do i sound better now? with the onomatopoeia and the exclamation marks? are you convinced?









ta-ta.

xoxo.


anyways, thanks liz.