i wonder if you notice me the way i notice you.

i wonder if you notice me the way i notice

you.





first french lesson tomorrow. FINALLYYYY. somehow, after i hyped it all out and then got disappointed last week, i have decided to not make such a fuss. even though i make a fuss about pretty much EVERYTHINGGGGG, it isnt in my system. now.


well, after attending the OSEP talk this afternoon, i realize i dont have a minimum of 10K to invest in the overseas exchange trip. which brings me to feeling sorry for myself cause i was really enticed by nice, france. which also brings me to feeling nausea for how some people can just splurge another 10K for a tour around other part of europe and then, i start to be much more pissed off with the seduction of barcelona, sinking venice, rome overwhelming me.

you know, stalker talks about sponsoring me and how i can return him the money slowly when "we are together in the future". (rolls eyes) i appreciate the thought, but no thanks. i wouldnt even take it if he's mega hot and is my boyfriend; and to think it's him, i'd rather rot in nyp. besides, there wouldnt be such a "future" that he talks (all the time) about. he even referred himself to "the guy whom you (i) will be with one day" when i told him my mummy will never let me take something from a stranger. poor deluded guy.







so i guess we'll have to see how it goes. i seem to say that all the time. the same goes for my tongue piercing, see what happens? i am still talking perfectly. and gaining no satisfaction when i look into the mirror at my tongue. i procrastinate and put things off. which reminds me, i have 21 days to date SWAN or else, there would be lunch and dinner free of charge. my classmates are such motivating people right? uncle thom and jo are encouraging me with abovementioned bets respectively.




who wouldnt want to date him even if there are no treats attached? who wouldnt!?






xoxo.