shit happens. especially to me.

shit happens. especially to me.

it just plain sucks that suddenly everything becomes so awkward between two people that when you talk on msn, you cant put the haha's you used to load the window with; when you are together in a room, he acknowledges every other person except for you (that means not looking you in the eyes too.); when it seems as though it's the end of the comfy friendship that you two share, and you appreciate it even though it only started a few weeks ago.

then again, maybe it's my own problem. i hate it how i can pick up mind information (psychological noise) that i dont think i am suppose to be picking up. it's not necessary for me to know these signs and i should probably ignore it and then behave normal like others, since they dont know it. but i cant. i just like to bolt when i feel that somethings have changed.

feelings ini memang tak bagus ah, nur dan zack. aku tak mahu kasil baju dia balik. (i have a feeling this whole chunk is bullshit.)

i should shut up now. how i wish people can just open up and admit stuff, facing things like i want them to. but they dont. they just let it run in their minds, hide in their hearts, brood and haunt them like ghosts.

i find it harder and harder to communicate.
and it's not something eff comm lessons can help.


i guess today is just one of those days i lament over stuff. i dont regret them, but i feel bad that there are particular aftermaths of them.


you know i know, nur. i love that nur and i are closer. it feels great to find a true friend in a new place so soon. of course you too, zack.



ta-ta.

xoxo.

i guess some people do get freaked out with my

outrageous display of emotions.