lost without you.

lost without you.



i am very happy these days. basically cause i have been eating yummy food, watching old movies and serials, and of course, have been seeing (eye to eye), talking and eating more with youknowwho! hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha. i know, i am so manipulated and it's disgusting. but hey, a girl needs to have some blind indulgences sometimes.



other than being dramatically love-struck and boy-crazed, i have been hanging out more with my "clique"! lunches, bugis, laughter (with a major plural). i am a good bargain shopper! peipei (similar top with mine.) and G (lovely lime green pants!) agree too! we bought three items for $45!

i have very little pictures cause i have been sleeping

with my spare time. drained.

script for effective writing skills. i hate sem two mods. dull.



wayyy to bugis. with nee nee pok and G!



my 50 aussie is gone. spent on mostly food! grr!

i love these shutters. i want them for my house next time. oh, with the glass roof also.



TCC!

furry dresssing room! haha.

my mummy's louis came yesterday. all the way from paris. it's pretty nice eh. but i dont like. i'd like a camera and an ipod now. hahahah. so until i got them, i have almost no interest in other things. (:

today, we went to GEYLANG. to eat more yummy food and.. survey the er, unique other side of the hospitality business. hahaha. "ban li ah"! - ignore this. i will blog again once the pictures from jo's lovely sexy new camera are sent to me!



preview : garene baked these for uncle thom! ahh, bliss of lurveeeee.

i had my first double decker ride too! hahahha.

till next time!

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i have been seeing this guy around customs. he is hot and he drives; he parks his car at this place and takes the bus to wherever. i am guessing poly, cause he has the poly look and it takes one to identify another. plus, he is dressed poly-ish. the hotter and more well type of dressed, that is : with board-shorts-like pants nd a tee or polo (lappie bag included). i noticed crumpler, nike, lacoste, ralph lauren. i even told mummy about him. she asked me to go ask for a ride, saves her the trouble of traffic. i rolled my eyes but secretly imagined myself doing that afterwards. but we all know i wont. cause i always think about stuff i hardly do. i am jsut saying. cause he's really hot. hahha. he looks alittle like your youknowwho, liz!

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ta-ta.

xoxo.

missing out?

missing out?



have you ever thought of how much you are missing out, just because you chose something different from the others?



would you wish to turn back time and go the conventional route instead?



when can we stop making choices and sacrifices?






it's emo day. shut up and go curl in bed. blog-hop is hell. i wanna be 18 now.





my problem is i want too much; best of all worlds.









ta-ta.

xoxo.

ac dreams.

bffs for life! <3

bffs for life! <3



i am glad glad glad todayyy! cause i finally get to see lizzie, zack, binny and alittle of darren K and nur's bob (very hot, love! no worries.). and next week, we're gonna ALL hang as usual! ahhh, LOVEEEEEELYYYYY.





since i couldnt upload pics yesterday (damnation.), here it is now.


we all wore the course polo and HAD to camwhore.

candid moments!

ACTUAL DOPE!

veryyyy nice photos right! i loveee! got natural wind somemore!

OLD PHOTOS OVER THE WEEKENDS,

mummmy!

i think i like blue!

blue clothes, undies, eyeshadow, pen etc etc.



but i still havent got a favourite. unwavering-not remember? hahha.




bye!







ta-ta.

xoxo.

"be my horny guest"

"be my horny guest"

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Mad Girl's Love Song

Slyvia Plath


"I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead;
I lift my lids and all is born again.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

The stars go waltzing out in blue and red,
And arbitrary blackness gallops in:
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.

I dreamed that you bewitched me into bed
And sung me moon-struck, kissed me quite insane.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

God topples from the sky, hell's fires fade:
Exit seraphim and Satan's men:
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.

I fancied you'd return the way you said,
But I grow old and I forget your name.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

I should have loved a thunderbird instead;
At least when spring comes they roar back again.
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)"

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maybe some are born with a decisive mind, and others are just plain loyal. unfortunately, i am none (hereby i have another middle name : wavering. little miss wavering-minded.). i have problems making up my mind and it has come to a point where i am afraid to make decisions cause i just dont like the feeling of having to ponder and having to know there has to somehow have an opportunity cost incurred. just a thought; but do you dare say what you chose now is what you really want? i dont want to talk about it now; maybe next time.





lighter note :


i am uber happy today! i have no idea why. but it's funny how we made almost the whole class (28 out of 31! ) wear the HS "be my guest" shirt! hahaha.

it's just plain suggestive to walk around with "be my guest" printed on top of your boobie lah! tsk. whoever designed..


anyways. the pictures turned out GREAT! but blogger is a damnation so i will upload them like tomorrow?







i am addicted to tutorial homework and youtube! i shall go off!








ta-ta.

xoxo.

let me live in idiosyncrasy hereafter.

let me live in idiosyncrasy hereafter.

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i miss being good at something; i miss literature.

The Night Has a Thousand Eyes

Francis William Bourdillon (b. 1852)


The night has a thousand eyes,
And the day but one;
Yet the light of the bright world dies
With the dying sun.

The mind has a thousand eyes,
And the heart but one;
Yet the light of a whole life dies
When love is done.

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lately, i have been

a) dreaming about running away more and,

b) in a very cheery mood less.

i dont seem to have a goal and nothing much keeps me wanting to come to school. plus, second sem is a bitchy biyatch (easily determined after five gruelling days of lectures and tutorials). and that's just one other reason to curl in my covers and avoid all human beings.


okay. so maybe not ALL. if nursoknowswho suddenly ask me out (prolly cause there was an accident met and thus, a MAJOR concussion.), i might consider. but wait, i am suppose to snap out of this whole loser-ish pining act on nskw (abbr. for nursoknowswho)! so maybe i'll just have to stick to my fucked up principles to retain my worthless dignity, and just stay in my, it-which-matches-my-mood blue covers. with a magical encyclopedia of all the literary works and art pieces of the world, and another magical book of all the pretty things of the universe, and all the dvds of all the flicks in the galaxy, and an endless pot of turkish apple tea. and of course, my unicorns and mermaids. what am i saying; you can see my greediness. i want so much.

on a lighter note, today's my brother's birthday! happier 14th, wei. dont go getting yourself into a r/s now. it's bad. speaking from experience. we went to this restaurant call NINIQ, opened by my ex-tutor. it was splendid and i had my favourite turkish apple tea and i felt much better for that little while. maybe i should start stocking up on them. turkish apple tea = new happy drugs.




i am all done here. i need to rest my.. everything. where's a spa when you need one. how i wish i am filthy rich so i dont have to study icky stuff like accountings and i can just laze around doing what i like and enjoy myself with all the pampering i pay for with my credit card/ trust fund. dreams dreams dreams. i just want everything to go my way. that's too much to ask somehow.







ta-ta.

xoxo.

back to school. sorrynobettertitle.

back to school. sorrynobettertitle.

it's was alittle awkward with a sleepy twist.


i didnt really learn anything, and i made my first blunder/joke of the sem (thanks to lousy pronunciation on the teacher's part!). uncle thom sure laughed loud eh.


fashion wise, it was RED mud MNG pants (with a skull at the butt!) with my sexy new top. forgot about taking pictures, so next time eh.

behold my new bag. it wouldnt last long i predict. I NEED A LAPPIE CASE AH! MY LAPPIE GOES NOWHERE. (birthday coming eh! HINT.) hahaha.

anyways, i didnt put these up yesterday cause i was adjusting my biological clock and intended to sleep early (but duh it fails and i fell asleep only at 1 when i had to wake at 4 plus and thus i felt super sleepy the whole day. tsk.).





it was good hair day! why cant it be goood hair day on the first day of schoool! you should see my hair today, the curves are all at weird places. tsk!





we went to this restaurant with super hot (as in 'SEXY' hot. not 'HOT' hot.) tables! haha. my brother and i couldnt resist!







so, i camwhored my legs. and now i am determined to run or swim. thunder thighs tsk. and i found out, i cant use a clutch (here courtesy of trevor. thanks!) cause i take veryyy long to pack my stuff. basically cause i have too much stuff.
-.-

haha my notebook/planner.

well,

there is a new addition to our class! but she's a girl. not exactly our wish-come-true moment. you should see my hopeful face when the teacher said something like "there's a new classmate...". and of course, my disappointed face that follows after "she is..". I GIVE UP!

and AMK hub has a coffee beans now!

why am i reporting nonsense. tsk. bye!

ta-ta.

xoxo.

quote of the century :


GIVE LOVE. GIVE TYNG AN IPOD VIDEO.

dont you love the boy-crazed me?

dont you love the boy-crazed me?



ting called me boy-crazed on her tagboard! well, i am what. so?! everybody knows i am WORLD-PROCLAIMED, and everybody is always highly entertained by actions brought about by this craziness of mine right? okay. i am spouting nonsense to hide my tinge of embarrassment. it's her tagboard eh! on the WORLD WIDE WEB! but of course, i will still take her in when she runs away from school to johor. hahaha. see! i am a fantastic abso-fab friend!

moving on, to pictures!

my brother, wei. who rarely smile and take pictures.

shall i get this?

bags of love! oh, i got boxers from topman for myself (to wear as shorts at night or something. couldnt resist the design lah.) haha. picture next time!

little mr and miss scarf! lovelyyyyyy.

BIG NEWS!


i cut my hairrr!

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GOTCHA!

i just bunned it up at the back, inspired by kate hudson in 'how to lose a guy in ten days'. it's super nice cause it wont cause a bump on your hair like how ponytails do, plus, it enhances natural curves. you dont get it do you? never mind. it's speak-nonsense day. but i really was tempted to snip it off, though i still love my curves to death. I WANT BUTT-LONG CURVES!

ta-ta.

xoxo.

selama hari raya!

selamat hari raya!





to all my malay friends!



selamat hari raya!



i was constantly reminded by the fireworks outside, that caused baby to bark and whine and hide under the shoe cabinet. hahaha. funny thing. well i texted my most important friends, YOU TOO, NUR HAPPY EH HAHAHHA, and my ex-colleagues from secret.



i am going cliche with 'HAVE A GOOD ONE YOU GUYS'. ah, i always wanted to say that. (:





have you experienced the joy of being noticed? do you know how it feels like to catch some random's eye? today's a happy happy day. somewhat.










ta-ta.

xoxo.

stop messing with my head.

stop messing with my head.



hereafter, i shant ever blog-hop again. well, knowing myself i might still, and that is why i am so pissed off with you. and myself, of course, but that happens all the time.



let's just say, i am so sick of your "we're best friends and club together we shall" declarations. and i am so sick of your "i know you so well, and you like me, so we need after-school dates" intentions. you can do all the shit you want, but just dont make it so obvious that you're flaunting your success in my face. seriously, it is victory at all? they are still my close friends (at least one of them is. the other just makes me mad now. so, no difference.), and you? maybe an occasional hangout.



this is childish, i feel so dumb getting all irked up. you can take what you seem to have took, and so what if he tells you things first? we all know, in the end, you're just that conniving bitch who cant bear to just watch others live their better lives.







ta-ta.

xoxo.

do we have to do the countdown?

do we have to do the countdown?



hey all! i am alive, and school's in 5 days and i cant wait for the social part, cause i have some new clothes (at least for the first day. hah.) and i will soon shop for more new "school materials" once i can get my lazy ass out of bed. plus, things are getting stiff, dull and mouldy and i am getting worse at the whole talk-to-humans thing cause malaysia is my ulu kampung and i just come back to sleep, rest my head brain mind cause i no longer have anyone to talk to here. so there, i am ready to get my life back. after a mani-pedi that is.


as for the academic part, the timetable is definitely suckier and the modules are dull. but everybody hang on! year two will be better! we hope. and of course, GOD, please send a hot male transfer student (for whatever reason i dont care) to HB. i think you owe us alittle much-needed eye candy. i am not even asking for alot, just one! and tyng shall keep wishing, praying, dreaming and hoping.



just polished off all the available episodes of gossip girl. i think i seriously need to get a life. but before that, inner tyng's geeky thoughts I LOVE THAT SHOWWWWWWWWWW! wheeeeee! though it's pretty different from the book and all, i still LOVE it for its vibe! that whole huge-difference-between-the-rich-and-the-poor and you-can-never-know-our-world thing, soooooooooo my thing! hahahaha. /inner tyng's geeky thoughts alrighty, moving on.



i took some photos here and there over the days, but i am lazy to upload them. so i guess we'll let it compile and then, a bonanza.

book me for monday afternoon!

lessons end 12!

ta-ta.

xoxo.

i drooled.

i drooled.

late nights bring down our defences and we are thus more vulnerable, and this is why i succumbed to the devilish materialistic temptations and went all crazy and now am desiring THESE babies for my 18th.

root of evil: www.coach.com

but i was still pretty calm and i could divide my WANTS cum NEEDS to three categories :





first is the i-will-love-you-long-long-time-if-you-get-me-it's
i want i love i need.

daphne snaphead pendant



boyfriend peace charm necklace

daphne heart pendant necklace (but i like the green heart.)

daphne cross pendant

daphne snaphead 64" necklace

second is the i-know-my-limit-so-i-put-these-second's
i desire them just as much as the first.

1 1/2" fragrance bangle

1 1/2" signature bangle (love the navy-silver one too.)

signature cut-out cuff (if i get this in gold, the previous will be navy-silver!)

third is the looks-hot-but-i-wont-die-without-it's

sterling silver snaphead earrings

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i wont look at the charms, keyfobs, ballet flats! etc etc. i am calm, i will go to bed without these lovely beautiful torturing images racing in my little head.

ta-ta.

xoxo.

i retail to heal.